You Should, You Should!
And How It Was Made
You Should, You should! is my first children's book I have ever contracted for publishing, and I had the wonderful pleasure of working with publishing company "Familius" to be published October 15, 2013 digitally and in print.
I've documented the whole process so you can watch it evolve from writing, to raw ugly sketch, to colorful painting, as well as hear my worries, fears, excitements, successes, publishing details, and learn what it's like to be totally green writer/illustrator WITH me since this is my first book. A huge plus (for me) has been the comments and help I've received from my followers - I can't thank you enough!
- Big News - publishers showing interest
- Contract Signed! - yay!
- Hippo Character and Story Boarding - my hippo started out UGLY
- THE STORY - inviting feedback
- ReWorking the Ending - Any help?
- Character Design - some of these have changed a lot since this post
- Thumbnails - teeny tiny drawings of what the page might look like
- Watercolor?? - the decision process of choosing a medium is hard
- THE Dummy Book - starting to come together!
- Change the Title??? Help
- Size Relationships - to stabilize consistency of how big they are standing next to each other.
- DummyBook Reworks (Part 1)
- DummyBook Reworks (Part 2)
- Painting Number One AND Story Behind the Story - finally a painting!... and this is where I start sharing the whole reason why I wrote this story. Turns out to be very personal.
- Color Compositions - tiny with color pencil
- Dancing Hippo - which dance pose?
- Painting Hippo n Possum / Relationship Pyramid - finally two paintings!!
- Re Evaluating - Hit a road block.... deciding to make some big changes!
- Digital? Good News, Sad News - I tried to switch to digital paint but might not work out after all.
- Writing a "Sales Hook"
- Writing the back of book Summary
- Finalizing Drawings (part 1)
- SPEED DRAWING - a MOVIE of me drawing really fast! Giraffe vs Hippo
- Giraffe Painting
- Monkeys Painting, Birdie Painting
- Possum Painting
- Crocodile Painting
- Flamingo Painting
- Lightning Bug Painting
- Title Page Painting
- Giraffe Tugs Spot Painting
- The Crash
- Walk Like This?
- FRONT COVER
- Pre-Order on Amazon is avaiable!
- OO! OO! EE! EE! AH! AH!
- La la la's
- "I like my spot! I like my hat!"
- A Sweet Chomp
- My Dance
- Good bye ol hat...
- Walk of my own
- I would rather swim
- Ending page
- In the Newspaper!
- Back of Book Cover
- Full Book Cover Jacket Printed
- 1st Gallery Show (will remain up from June 28 - July 13 at UVU Library)
- *SNEAK PEEK*
- Read Book Reviews
How did I come up with the idea for the story?
Well, I was in the midst of anxiety, depression, counseling, and studying like crazy about something called "Codependency" (read about codependent symptoms here) which was finally something that explained all my habits and obsessions I couldn't seem to drop, and the weaknesses I couldn't seem to overcome. As I became a Senior in college, it was time to think about my Senior Capstone Project. I decided I'd like to write and illustrate a children's book. First I needed a story idea. Learning to become a person who doesn't eat sleep and breathe for the purpose of pleasing other people was my main focus at the time, and I was thinking about how I rarely lived by choices, I lived by shoulds. I was thinking about how I use to do anything just so people would like me, even painful and uncomfortable things, all with a smile. I thought about how if only I'd learned this lesson of giving merit to my own wants and feelings as a child might have saved me a lot of grief, and also enhanced many friendships. Thus... a little idea was born for this story.
I chose a hippo because he's perfectly awkward yet totally cute. He's huge. Eats messy. Doesn't have hair. Not super agile. A codependent hippo would easily only focus on all these reasons why he's not important enough to be loved, unless he's pleasing others. But a confident and healthy hippo would quickly see the asset he is and love being in his own skin, not even giving a care to comparing his differences to others, and feelings that it's okay to say how he feels and assert his wants and needs.
With the writing/illustrating process, I'm also sharing why I wrote this book and what I hope children and adults will glean from it. Yes - the shy, though cute people-pleasing, timid, insecure hippo represents me. I'm trying to teach assertiveness skills through my work, and will be sharing what I'm learning in my own therapy process in some of my posts here and there.
- CODEPENDENCY SYMPTOMS -
Painting Number One AND Story Behind the Story
- GETTING OUR WANTS AND NEEDS MET -
Kitty Wants - A digital ebook I'm making at School
- HOW TO ACHIEVE HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS -
Painting Hippo n Possum / Relationship Pyramid -
- STANDING UP FOR OURSELVES -
- WHAT TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP ARE YOU IN?
Codependent, Dependent, Interdependent