Friday, December 28, 2012

"Kitty Wants" App is Published in iTunes!!


Hi!!!!!  I'm really excited and happy and humbled and a little bit tickled to announce....

.......As of Dec 20th my little story app "Kitty Wants" (created in my Children's Book Illustration class this past semester) is published in the App Store on iTunes for iPad/iPhone!  Yup, and it's only $0.99.  Here's the link:






Remember to click on everything!  Don't worry, your kids will get it.  They'll know how to find all the cool stuff.

To those who purchase my proud little app, I ask you to please submit a customer review!  And feel free to be honest, I can take it.  ;)  I do hope you and your kiddos enjoy!!  

About "Kitty Wants"
This story is written for the shy ones who, for whatever reason, sit in the background, afraid to assert themselves by asking for what they want.  This story opens an opportunity for parents to discuss and teach their children how they can learn from Kitty that they too are allowed to use the simple tool of asking, that they have value equal to others, and their wants/needs matter.  Read my original introduction (about "getting our needs met") to why I wrote this story here.

Thank you
...to ALL who helped, especially my small writing critique group I met this summer at WIFYR who critiqued my story in October while I was making it, my Children's Book Illustration class who cheered and giggled every time I showed them the latest progress on the animations etc, and especially especially Will Terry because without his assignment to create an app in his class, it wouldn't be created!

P.S.  Don't laugh TOO hard at my awkward narrating and weird silly sounds I make..... hehe.....


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FAQ: What is the difference between an APP and an EBOOK?

An ebook is usually text heavy and image light, made only for reading on your device like a normal book.

An app usually has multimedia elements, interactivity, and sounds.


Sunday, December 16, 2012

Digital: Good news, sad news


Good news:
This isn't finished, but I wanted to show you what I've got so far digitally!  You like?  Here's the thing... I love looking through a sketchbook and at drawings far more than looking at paintings.  And I love drawing way more than painting.  So... wondering if I can preserve the drawing/sketching/penciling/lining part of the work and also bring in bright vibrant color at the same time.  Like I said this isn't finished... but this is certainly exciting, fun, semi-addicting... which WHO KNEW..., and I'm far happier with the results and process, and guess what... I've been dreaming about painting digitally at night.  I'm all excited.  I had no idea I'd enjoy it this much.  My tablet still hasn't even come in the mail yet but I used the school tablets to make this.

Sad news:
Sad news is... I talked to my respectable advisor yesterday, and looks like switching to digital like this is most likely not an option.  I might have cried a little in his office.  Poor guy probably gets that a lot because I discovered an appreciated box of tissues at arm's length.  I'm very bummed.  But, I must do what I must do.  At least I know something I didn't know before, that I can take with me to use in future work.  So I guess it still kinda ends with good news again.  But yeah... bummer.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

12-12-12 Sketch!!!

Decided I need... no no no WANT... to start drawing for fun again!

Here's my sketch for today.
(even though I really drew him a couple days ago... shhh)

Hm... what should his name be...


(Ball point pen)

Friday, December 7, 2012

Want to Preview "Kitty Wants?!"

Who wants to preview my entire ALMOST FINISHED Digital App (interactive ebook) "Kitty Wants"? Click on this link! I have to finish and submit it today (gotta hurry) so I'll be working on it til it's finished! Fyi, pretend you're 5 and click on everything!

http://publish.talespring.com/shared/books/1934/2372


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Re-Evaluating this Children's Book thing...

Alrighty.  Time to be honest.

I promised you the whole trip, trial and error, everything going into this children's book "You Should! You Should!"  Challenges, fears, successes, process, mistakes, paintings, drawings, the whole shebang.  So today I'm going to share with you what's REALLY going on, instead of surprising you with sudden huge news, or telling you more fluffy "yay another painting" junk.

Okay.  So here's the thing.  How do I say this...

First, a confession:

I'm not passionate about painting.  I'm not passionate about art.  I like it and I'm good at it, but it's NOT my favorite thing.  That's another story though.  So here I am in this situation.  Get this....

I have THREE months to finish 24, yes, TWENTY-FOUR acrylic paintings on canvas.  Don said most illustrators have 9 months to a year.  Let's see... I signed the contract June 29th 2012, I've had 5 months already, and only have three UNfinished paintings to show for it.  Sure, designing the stage/characters/style takes a large amount of time, but I really could be much farther along by now.  I really could.  Alas, this is all I have:

Still haven't changed blue to purple
I have major changes to make on sunset
  
Just started this, I'm not even half way

Honestly?:

I don't love to paint.  Honestly?  I'm tired of painting.  Honestly?  I constantly look for excuses to avoid painting.  Wow did I just say that out loud?  No Ginny, you typed it.  But you've said it out loud to your friends lots of times times.  However... I am passionate about the story I wrote, the message behind it, and I'm passionate about sharing that message with parents and children and families and any single adult like me who comes across it.  I'm passionate about my purpose and feel like I have not just a good idea, but an important idea.  I want to write and illustrate fun playful "therapy" books that teach difficult skills and concepts to children in a fun easy way.

If I continue at this pace, however, I won't finish by March.  NOT finishing, is NOT an option.  But!  Something needs to change if I'm going make it.  Either externally or internally.  I've been fighting the internal struggle all these months and I'm still dragging my feet.  So... time to consider what EXternal changes I can make.

Here's what I'm thinking:

Painting in acrylic is so very time consuming.  I don't look forward to the the hours and hours I'm going to spend sitting at a canvas alone isolated in my bedroom, mixing and fussing with paint.  But... Monday, Will Terry did a digital painting demo for us in class.  He got twice as much the work done in half the time.  It looked incredible.  Also, talk about easy set up and easy clean up!  Plus the portability!  Not to mention all the great photoshop tricks with layers and filters and brushes and opacity.  And the UNDO BUTTON!  I vowed never to go digital... I myself don't enjoy looking at digital art the same as real paint on real surfaces.  I really feel like digital painting is fake painting.  I don't think it should be called "painting."  There's no "paint" involved in digital painting.  But... it is SO much faster and easier.  I decided I wouldn't switch to digital until it was absolutely necessary.  

~~~For those who don't know what digital painting means, check out my only ever full digital painting (Little Miss Muffet) where I show the process here.~~~

So... (grin)... what if I put the two TOGETHER??  What if I start a painting out traditionally, scan it, and finish it digitally???  What if.  What if!

I'm only 3 unfinished paintings into this process.  If I were to change everything, now would be the time.  So...

What I ask of you:  

Please be patient with me as I spend the next week building a new process.  I need to get a tablet, do a practice painting, finish it digitally, and seriously evaluate.  Also, please don't be mad I'm not the passionate artist I proclaimed to be.  I have to admit, it feels great to be honest.  But I do still find value here, and will continue to work hard until I find my niche!!  Don't give up on me yet.

Thanks for reading.  Thanks for supporting.  Thanks for being there.  I'll be honest... this whole experience has been a challenge.  I'm really, really excited to cross the finish line, look back and say, "I did it."

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Jean-Baptiste Monge

Every once in a great while I run across an artist whose work makes me really WANT to draw.  I won't lie, I have to push myself to get to work.  There are times I feel passionate, but lately it just feels like so much work.  Monday Will Terry showed us the work of Jean-Baptiste Monge (blog)... look at this stuff!  You can TELL he's having fun just by laying your eyeballs on it.  He's having a blast!  And he's GOOD.  I looove love his little creature dudes and their whimsical interactions with animals!  I just wanna grab a pencil and draw right now!!  (but I won't ... cuz 2 am and time for bed)  So great.  I had to share.

Had to.











Jean-Baptiste Monge's

(Images used with permission from artist - Thank you so much!!)

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

YSYS Painting: Possum n Hippo / Relationship Pyramid

I'm very happy with this one.  I haven't shown it to my advisor Don yet so I'm sure he'll have a lot to say but so far I'm pretty happy!

Originally I designed this with green grass and more blue in the possum but Don pointed out as he looked at my tiny color composition that at sunset the colors lean far more towards purples and oranges.  So I threw a bunch of orange and purple all over, with pretty orange pink and yellow highlights.

Text will go above Hippo and some more below Possum.

So!  You likey too?  :)

The Sketch:



The painting:



Possible Touch ups to be made:

(if you want to believe this is a perfect painting, don't read on!)  Grass can be even more orange/pink/purples still, I want more dimension in Hippo's eyelid since right now it's paper thin, and Hippo's skin in the shadows is kinda boring right the way it is.  The twig's (upper right corner) edges are probably a little too hard, and I can probably make all the highlights even lighter and better.

The Possum:

Isn't he adorable?  He's my fav part of this peice.  By the way, did you know possum can be spelled "Possum" or "Opossum?"  Weird...

Scene:

"Upside down is not for me,
and I don't like to climb you see.
Today I think that I would rather
swim and watch the fishes gather.

As I float on my backside
you're welcome to come catch a ride.
But I won't say 'You should you should!'
I'll let you choose it if you would."

This is the second to last page of the story, where Hippo takes those scary steps of assertiveness saying, "Thanks for suggesting I do that but actually I'm not comfortable and to be honest I'd rather not.  This other thing is what I really enjoy, and you're welcome to join me if you'd like.  If not, we can still be friends even though we are different."

Let me show you about the Relationship Pyramid my therapist taught me:

This applies to ALL relationships from neighbors to spouses to God.  100% Honesty AND 100% Commitment are the first foundational principles of a healthy relationship.  Next comes Trust.  Once both are established, Risk and Vulnerability happen, and the following effects are Emotional-Spiritual Intimacy where we Love and are Loved in return, finally eliciting Infinite Joy.

Now check this out.  If we are like Hippo starts out, committed but not honest (saying "sure I'll climb that tree, sounds great..." or "Uh yeah, I love this movie..."  "Um yeah of course I'm voting for him..."  "Sure, I have a great relationship with my family how about that weather!"  "I'm always happy and live a flawless life!!!")  We may be 100% committed (I'm here for you!) but if we're not 100% honest, the risk and vulnerability isn't happening, thus we don't get to find out we're loved for who we are; meanwhile, we're running ourselves thin in our commitment to others.  Therefore... a huge chunk of our joy is absent.

40% Honesty/Commitment = little red triangle of Joy and large empty space of Pain.

As most of you know, when joy is absent, there's that dark empty void.  And the void for us means pain.  So then what?  Our brain senses pain and quickly seeks to self-soothe/avoid, often without our awareness.  Addiction is the BEST way to self-soothe/avoid pain in this instance, which is why we have SOOO much addiction today.  Many of us have had a void since we were children.  We either never learned how to take risks and be vulnerable because our family systems didn't allow flawed imperfection - avoiding it when it was present, or some were simply abusive and taking risks wasn't safe. Or both.

There is "substance addiction," and there is also "process addiction," like:

Gaming
Spending
Work/Busying
Exercise
Gambling
Reading/Movies
Gossiping
Internet/FacebookEtcEtc
Sexual addictions
Eating
Obsessing over OTHER people and THEIR lives in order to avoid our own...
Etc...
Etc...
Etc...

Anything to fill the void right?  Usually if we cut one out, another will fill it's place.  The only way to actually heal the pain is to stop avoiding our demons, face them, feel our emotions, and take the time work and effort to resolve them with proper healthy tools (therapy, 12 Steps, connecting with Higher Power, journaling, confronting people, loving ourselves, ETC), and one of those tools AND glorious results is developing healthy relationships that involve 100% Commitment and 100% Honesty.  Aka: Infinite Joy.

Parents, children learn from you.  We can teach these great kiddo's by EXAMPLE that we can be vulnerable, admitting our actual feelings and imperfections, facing our demons and communicating our problems fears and weaknesses, and also teach children that they are allowed to make mistakes as well as express emotions (appropriately) and that we still love them for who they are.

Thought of the Day:

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

~Anais Nin

Friday, November 9, 2012

Where I Sit . . .

I always love when artists show us a peek of their work space.  I've seen some real clean spaces and some real busy messy spaces!  I'm probably a mix....

This is where I sit and make art:
 This is where I sit and make art with the light off:

This is what I can see today while I'm sitting making art:

I'm listening to Charlie Brown Thanksgiving Pandora Radio Station, coloring hippos and possums and flamingos, and watching my first heavy snowfall of this season.  It's pretty great.

The bars you see are from construction on our apartment.  I don't know what they're doing exactly, all I know is I wake up to hammering and spanish regularly.  (nothing against spanish)  Not today though.  I think I have the snow to thank for that.  ;)

So what is your work space like???  I dare you to post a link!  I'd love to see!

Friday, November 2, 2012

YSYS: Dancing Hippo

TAP Dancing Hippo!

(So I think my drawing is ready to paint, and then I realize I can draw it better!  Today I redrew the dancing hippo... check him out!)

"Spinning does not help me feet,
My feet dance to a different beat!"


Here was my very first sketch of this scene haha...

And then I got these guys going...


This is the one I did today.  I like him best:


INSPIRATIONAL IMAGES:

Fred Astaire and Savion Glover





Arms up, 
feet up and sideways and all over, 
head tilted, 
cane!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like its heaven on earth. 

~Mark Twain

Thursday, October 25, 2012

"Kitty Wants..." and Getting Our Needs Met

Yo!  So check these little guys out!!!  

In my Children's Book Illustration class we're making children's book apps (for kindle/ipad/etc) using a program online called "TaleSpring.com"  (not to be confused with Tale Spin).  These are the characters I've made so far for my app!

I'm sorry but I think they're ADORABLE!!!  Aren't they SO cute???  :)  Aw...


Prismacolor felt tip pen and watercolor on 140 lb watercolor paper:






See?  Told you.  CUTE.

I think the story will be called "Kitty Wants..."  or "I Want" or something like that...

It's about a kitty who can't seem to get his wants/needs met.  (compliments on his tail... fishies to eat... friends to play with... cuddles...)  Finally he learns a simple, useful little tactic: asking!


Why is asking for what we want/need SO hard?  Why do we feel so much shame (shame = "I am bad") for asking for things?  Why can't we just say, "Do you like my new haircut?"  Instead of going home feeling sad nobody said anything.  That nobody listened to our great stories.  That nobody cared about our struggle at the dentist.  Usually we find out, if we ask, people are more than willing to tell us, "Oh my gosh yes I forgot to tell you but I love your haircut!"  Or, "Oh of course you can have some of my chips... I love to share."  Or, "I'd be more than happy to give you 20 minutes if you need to talk.  Give me an hour to finish this and I'm all yours!"

Or, we can be like Kitty, and keep trying to manipulate to get what we want, with our subtle hints, and sighs, and silent treatments.

The truth is people in our lives most often DO care.  We are just too afraid to make ourselves vulnerable.  Many of us "codependents" (--you can read my post listing codep. symptoms) have spent so much time somewhere in our past trying to be perfect, rescuing everyone else, meeting someone else's needs like our lives depended on it.  Being the one who needs help is foreign, some of us stopped having needs to stop the pain.  But if we don't take simple little steps to get our own needs met, and take care of ourselves, we're looking at a road of underlying sorrow, resentment, hurt, shame, loneliness, and probably wearing a pretty fake smile.

If you're like I was/still am (there I go being vulnerable yikes!), you feel ashamed if you ask because you're admitting to being weak and having wants/needs/ and not being perfect, AND ashamed if you don't ask because all you see is that you're too weak to be vulnerable.  Haha... so sad.

Finally I had to learn this:

(Besides the fact that I, Ginny, just as I am, am good and important and my wants/needs matter)

1 - By keeping my wants/needs to myself, I was actually being controlling.  I wasn't giving the other party the opportunity to respond or react or choose to be compassionate or helpful or anything.  2 - My therapist pointed out:  If I ask for help, there's a chance I'll get what I want and a chance I won't.  But if I don't ask, it's always always always zero chance.  3 - We discussed in group that although we feel like "being strong" is being happy and perfect all the time, it takes an even stronger person to be real and vulnerable.

We are important!  We deserve good things.  We can ask for help, and we're even allowed to set the boundaries.  "Thanks for giving me this time to talk to you for 20 minutes, but it helps me to have your full attention.  Do you mind if we turn off the TV?"

Bottom line is this:  We can't depend on others to make us happy.  We get to learn to love ourselves first.  Enough to where we can ask for help without fear of rejection, because then the rejection, though it may hurt and that's okay, can't send us spiraling back into the ground.

Me?

Oh... well... It may be a while before I get this down... I'm still really bad at it.  But eventually we'll get there!  I'm finally inviting the Lord back into my life to actually help with my issues, letting Him know straight up that I'm not perfect and can't do it on my own, and guess what?  Progress is finally picking up pace.  :)

Thought of the day:

"You matter, you matter!  Make your needs fatter!"

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Color Comps

Funny thing happened.  I took my painting and two others ready to start on into my advisor, Don Seegmiller, and he said, "Great, but, you need to do tiny color compositions before you continue on in your paintings.  Trust me, it'll save you loads of time in the end!"  Don is always right in these instances so... here they are.

Color Compositions!
(Done in prisma colored pencil... the images came out a little greenish on the computer but just work with me)

So here are different ways to do hippo:
(figuring out the sand color was hard... then I wasn't sure about the hat color, and then the hippo color!)





     And....




So my big questions are:

Pink or green hat?
Blue or purple hippo?

Hmmmmm...


You Should You Should thought of the day....

"Grown-ups don't have shoulds.  
They have CHOICES."

Monday, October 15, 2012

YouShouldYouShould: The Story Behind the Story AND Painting Number ONE!

(To read Codependency Symptoms, skip/scroll down to the bottom of the page)


Painting number ONE!!

(I'm starting from the middle of the book so by the time I paint the beginning and ending, they will look their best!)



"STOP!"
The glorious moment of first-born assertion!!!  You go, Hippo!
Acrylic on Canvas


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Why did I write "You Should You Should?"

(Ginny takes a deep breath...)

INTRO:  You Should You Should is about a passive, people-pleasing hippopotamus who is approached by different animal characters who tell him what he should do, none of which are things he actually wants to do but does anyway.  He eventually learns that through being assertive, the animals love and appreciate him for just being himself.



(New comers can read "You Should You Should" here)

Many have asked how the story "You Should You Should" has come about.  Those who know me even a little bit cocked their head with a smile and said, "Ginny... is this a story about you?"  (You smarties!)  Some who suffer from codependency and anxiety have read this story saying, "Yep!  I know this feeling exactly."  I'm going to take a moment to finally explain the story behind the story.

Well, it all started when...  (go ahead, picture me on one of those couches)

I was in the midst of anxiety, depression, counseling, support groups, and studying self-help literature about something called "Codependency."  As I became a Senior in the Illustration Program here, it was time to think about my Senior Project - we all have to do one of those in the Bachelor of Fine Arts program to graduate.  I decided I'd like to write and illustrate a children's book!  Duh.  ;)  But first I needed a story idea.  Learning and working hard to become a person who does NOT eat sleep and breathe for the purpose of pleasing other people was my main focus at the time, and I happened to also be thinking about how I rarely live by choices, I live by the demands of shoulds.  I was thinking about how I use to do anything just so people would like me, even painful and uncomfortable things, all with a smile.  I thought about how learning this lesson of giving merit to my own wants and feelings as a child might have saved me a lot of grief.  As I came to understand more, I also thought it might be cool to possibly write a series of children's stories teaching concepts and skills that I'm just barely learning now and wish I'd learned years ago. Hence my first story about an awkward passive hippo who learns to say no, to be assertive, to value his wants as well as the choice to simply be himself.  :)

So.  Codependency.  This term is complex and difficult to explain, and I'm still making sense of it in my own mind, but I'll be briefly discussing this more in future posts.  It can exist between spouses, parent-child, friends, roommates, etc.  We'll start with a list of characteristics for today.

www.nmha.org (Mental Health America) gives us this short list of symptoms:

A Few Characteristics of Codependent People

  • An exaggerated sense of responsibility for the actions of others
  • A tendency to confuse love and pity, with the tendency to “love” people they can pity and rescue
    • ("You're too emotionally stable so I can't love you.  You don't need me to fix you.")
  • A tendency to do more than their share, all of the time
    • ("I'll buy.  I drive.  I'll clean up.  I'll write you a million love notes.  I'll give you a hundred back rubs.")
  • A tendency to become hurt when people don’t recognize their efforts
  • An unhealthy dependence on relationships. The co-dependent will do anything to hold on to a relationship; to avoid the feeling of abandonment
    • ("I'll spend all my money on you, skip class for you, take work off for you, text you all the time, and sleep 2 hours a night since you cry and tell me your problems, it if it means you'll be my best friend")
  • An extreme need for approval
    • ("I rearranged the furniture... are you SURE you like it?  Are you sure it's okay I came along on that trip last weekend?  Is this shirt alright?  Oh, ...should I not have laughed at that joke?  Because you didn't...")
  • A sense of guilt when asserting themselves
    •  ("I don't really want to do that... wait but unless you want to actually never mind I love that idea let's do that because I'm not that important, just kidding, I'm sorry I mentioned it!"  "I'm sorry-...  Oh sorry-...  Sorry...")
  • A compelling need to control others  
    • ("What are you doing tonight?  I'll give you a ride.  Have you eaten?  What's wrong?  Do you need money?  Sit down and let me make your life better and make you happy, so that I can be happy.")
  • Lack of trust in self and/or others  
    • ("You said it's fine and you still love me... but I don't believe you."  "I'm going to stay miserable because I can't trust myself to get my needs met.")
  • Fear of being abandoned or alone  
    • ("Why didn't you say goodbye before you left?  Why didn't you call?  Why didn't you like what I cooked for you?  Do you not like me anymore?  Are you going to leave me?  Forget it.  I'm leaving you before you can leave me!")
  • Difficulty identifying feelings  
    • ("I'm fine ... I'm always fine ... I'm always happy ... unless you're not fine then I won't be fine until you're fine again ... gee I wonder when the last time I cried was besides the times I saw you cry)
  • Rigidity/difficulty adjusting to change
  • Problems with intimacy/boundaries  
    • ("Yes you can come over.  Yes you can use my stuff.  Yes you can be in my personal bubble.  Yes you can take advantage of me because I can't say no.  And I'm fine."
  • Chronic anger  
    • (depending on which stage we're in - anger took me a while in therapy to feel but once I learned to accept emotions and feel, I was ALWAYS angry)
  • Lying/dishonesty 
    • ("Yeah, I like this movie" ... "I'd love to babysit your cat" ... "No,"-smile-"I don't mind that you're bailing on me for the 50th time, it's fine.")
  • Poor communications
  • Difficulty making decisions 
    • ("I don't know"  "I don't care"  "What do you think?")
  • And I'll include from other places I've read... Codependents are known to "should" on themselves. 
    • "I should always be happy.  I should make everyone else happy.  I should do what people tell me to do.  I should be perfect.  I should I should I should..."  Oy!  No wonder I have anxiety.
Now, to put simply, CODEPENDENT means believing "I'm dependent on you being dependent on me."  AKA:  "We love each other because we need each other" instead of "We need each other because we love each other."  Aka:  "I need you to need me."  Yes, codependency is considered an actual behavioral addiction, and as a result we lose contact with ourselves, our feelings, our needs, and feel awful shame if we try.  

In future posts ALONG with my art :) I'll discuss more about this people pleasing disease.  Such as who it affects, where it comes from, why we have it, how we behave, more symptoms, a questionnaire, how to treat it, anxiety, etc, and how children are related to all of it!  I'll only be speaking from my own learning and experience, and I do NOT claim to be a professional by any means.  Hahaha... yeah definitely not.  I'm still in recovery so... yeah.

I have a goal to write fun and playful children's books that teach skills to children and parents, skills that if are developed in childhood could save us a lot of grief and anxiety as adults.

Why children?

For one, I absolutely LOVE them; dude, kids are COOL people!  Also, my therapist explained a theory which states that the lenses through which we perceive our world develop by the time we're 6.  (I know right?)  I'm not saying ALL people who struggle with codependency or any mental illness start at age 6.  But at least, the seeds are usually planted in childhood and the behaviors are often learned from example.

You Should You Should's quote of the day:

God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.

--The Serenity Prayer

Saturday, October 6, 2012

We Are Artists: Featuring YOU

I'm SO grateful to all who submitted "art" and gave permission to post.  I'm so VERY excited to show you all off!  There are some really great things here!  Please enjoy the art-stroll, and if you still have something you'd like to share, I'll be more than happy to stick you in!  Just email me - ginnytilby@gmail.com

Thanks Again!

Ginny


Spencer and Ben Allred
"Allred-y Films'" features on Discombobulate TV:

The Movies

You're Scaring the Ducks


















Aimy Wombwell:







Karen Ohlinger:















PIANO PIECE:
"Nightmare"







Will Terry:






Sandra Pfeiffer:











Nightmare
By Alisha Geary:
~
Heartpound.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Rise through darkest slime,
extract of fear—eager demons
claw. I slide through the grasp
of talons—shards of shadows with
raw red edges.
Words echo, scream, sing, dig
at soulstring’s tender 
fleshy heart.
Evil lurks, breathes in curl of ear
sits on shoulder, stains footprints
that try to rise 
and rise 
andshatter like light streaming in through
morning’s window—
escape. 







Adam Dove:








Alexia:







Getting My Mouth Washed Out


Once my grandmother got very angry
when I argued with her.
I was a five year old
who did not know her place.

So she told me to open my mouth
and then she put a bar of soap inside.
Forty-six years later,
I still remember
that awful taste.

But I didn't stop arguing
with her or anyone else.
I've argued with teachers, parents,
rabbis, politicians, and bosses
if they try to limit my freedom
or curtail other people's rights.

I've lived long enough
to see some reforms.
So here's my advice
to other rebellious kids:
If someone threatens you
with a bar of soap,
keep talking so fast
that no one can ever wedge
a stopper in your mouth.


Copyright Michigan Reading Journal, 2009; rpt. in Janet Ruth Heller, Traffic Stop (Finishing Line Press, 2011); rpt. in Janet Ruth Heller, Folk Concert: Changing Times (Anaphora Literary Press, 2012).  



























Alicia VanNoy Call:

"Eric" 
Short story you can read or listen to the audio recording at WileyWriters online:

Mom pulled us out of school the day before the attack. She told us to get our handhelds, favorite holo discs, bedding, clothes, books even. She took us down to The Cave. That’s what we called it back when Dad was building it, when I was little. Down under the house, through tunnels, a vertical ladder and a two-door airlock. We hadn’t been down there since it was finished.
“Maybe we’ll never have to use it,” I remember Dad saying. But he and Mom had looked at each other in a way that said, Maybe. Maybe not.........







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